The Long and winding road

Im not sure where this post is going to lead, maybe its just going to be a load of drabble so sorry if i bore the pants off you, but you can always take a look at red t**e if that is the case.When people revert to distance in hours not miles that tells you something about how easier it is to get around over here,when we head back to the Maritmes from Toronto as soon as you get away from the city and as long as its not proper rush hour time, the only other traffic you will see is in Montreal and you can skirt that in 30 mins or so,so basically you can drive 16 hours with hardly any much hassle, cruise on 65 and just let her go.With all this time you have there isn't much else to do than start thinking ,well on my way back this time thats what i did and it lead me all over the place,i suppose the missing of Lady Pen always takes a prefference and from that it spiralls all over the place,how the heck did i get to be over 3000 mile away from her cos i know for sure this was never a dream of mine to do this,what really makes us put ourselves in these positions,to be honest if i never drove a truck again it wouldn't bother me,although ever since i was a young lad all i wanted to do was drive trucks, as soon as i was 21 test passed i was on the road doing every type of work possible in UK and Europe, but things change over they years and if Tesco's hadn't shafted us yes i would still be working there, i remember a guy who handed his notice in there because he was off to Canada to do this, at the time i even thought you know that really isn't something i like to do, but things in life happen for a reason im a firm believer in that.So i start to look back at the early times of this and remember when i actually broached the subject to Lady Pen, the way she looked at me was if i had sprouted horns and turned green, even her words were yeah right whatever!!!Im not sure i would do anything different (it would be interesting to see if any others would)as you get older you look at things differently, prioritys change, the material wealth has taken a back seat for me the only thing that matters in my life is Lady Pen and my 2 children so why put myself in this postion of not seeing them for 3 months at a time.I don't get lonely driving or staying in the truck i never have and i was telling somone the other day probably the only time i have was in a restaurant full of people but no one to actually talk to properly,thats when it hit me and a rush of saddness came over me.I can't be doing this for money because i earn't alot more in England than i do here for a lot less work (maybe a lot more stress though traffic wise etc).A better life is all i keep hearing people say thats why we are here,well i had an extremely good life in England plenty of holidays all abroad even long haul ones nice car,nice house (in which we paid very little for)but still i ended up here.Im not sure what people expect when they actually come over here, i reaseached, researched and researched some more we even got on a plane and checked things out for ourselfs.It is everything how ive thought it would be, the work, the place, the people but i hear people saying that they have been lied to,wages is normally the common thing,if you are kept in work that is all well and good,work out how many miles you can drive a day than calculate your rate etc easy,but if it goes slack as all places and you don't get a run for a few days,you don't get paid its as simple as that,The Canadian way not english or european way we don't get hourly pay its basically a performance related pay.So when you arrive here there isn't pot of gold when you land, i have come out here on my own knowing all this and i have planned for it, we have looked in to all angles and even though were apart we think this is the best way FOR US.So i then start to think about other things in this better life im looking for, i think its quite expensive to live here,food,the cost of living in winter time is high (Heating cost etc)taxes are quite high, petrol isn't as dear as the UK but is rising,houses are cheaper but only if you have money for a good size deposit if you haven't then they are expensive when you are on 33 cents a mile,it really is all doom and gloom isn't it, well no its not, anyone who has an once of intelligence would have looked into all this and planned,when you see past all that it becomes apparent why we and a lot of others have decided to do this,There isn't any scallys hanging around shops etc intimidating people, the crime is relatively low, the traffic is very low, the people are a lot more friendlier, it isn't very populated,now things start to appeal,its a slower pace of life (When your not driving a truck).I hadn't been to PEI before, and to be honest wasn't that impressed when i arrived, but as time has passed the place has grown on me to such an extent that i feel that seeds are started to be sown.The bigger picture, the short term loss long term gain (i read that in another drivers thing who is in the same boat)is it worth it, well we think so, and hopefully those who are in the same postion or will be in the same postion can see past the first 12 months and see how wonderfull Canada truly is.